이백원 있어요. ~ "I have two hundred won."
워, 한국어 말도 수있어요. ~ "Wow, you can speak Korean."
아니요, 한국어 잘 못해요. ~ "No, I can't speak well."
One of the most obvious difficulties of moving to South Korea is that I do not speak their language. Of course there are lots of English words and letters used in Korea, and the average person knows many basic English words. But there is still the humbling realization that as far as communication goes, you are like a baby, totally relying on those around you for help.
Ever since Isaac and I began dating, I have tried in some capacity to learn Korean. Depending on what was going on with work or school, I devoted more or less time to this endeavor. I began listening to Korean music and watching Korean soap operas to help pick up phrases. Although these efforts over the past five years laid a foundation of understanding, it did little to prepare me for living here and actually speaking the language.
This past year within my elementary education program, I had the opportunity to help teach and learn from second and fifth grade students. Reading with children, and trying to suggest tips to help them read and understand words and sentences better, was one of the hardest things I encountered. Now I find myself in their shoes. I look at a sentence in Korean and scan it for familiar words. I look at images that may give me a clue towards meaning. If I hear a sentence spoken, I consider the tone used. It feels like slowly chipping away at a chunk of marble trying to uncover the statue beneath. I think I see an ear, maybe a cheek, but there is still so much I don't recognize or understand.
Another take-away from my education program is the importance of learning through experience. Passively listening to K-pop (Korean pop music) was fun and helpful to learn Korean phrases. But I still had no hands-on experience with the Korean language, speaking it, looking someone in the eyes and trying to decode the words they are speaking.
So back to the grocery store. Most cashiers avoid speaking to me when I shop alone, assuming I do not speak or understand Korean (which isn't far from the truth). The cashier rang up my groceries - eggs, tofu, green onions - then pointed to the total on the screen. I pulled the correct bills out of my wallet and handed them to her. "I have two hundred won" I said in Korean, trying to be polite, knowing that I was holding up the check-out line with my wallet fumbling.
"Wow, you can speak Korean." Her reply, although simple and only expressing her surprise, encouraged me. It means I spoke a Korean sentence well enough to be understood. It means a native speaker thought I spoke Korean well. A trip to the grocery store, to a cafe, to visit Isaac's dad, one experience at a time I will continue learning Korean.
Just like learning a language the first time around, or picking up most anything for that matter, learning Korean comes piece by piece, one experience after another.
Learning the Korean language is a big part of my thoughts and a large source of discomfort right now, so it seemed natural to share my excitement about this brief conversation with y'all. It's a good reminder that there are always things you can learn and improve through diligent practice - whether it's relationships, a hobby or a new language.